May 27th 2012
I know you probably already forgot about me, yet I haven’t forgot about you. I know I can’t come to conclusions, but I am just stating a possibility. Anyway I am not even close to forgeting you for a very long time, you are the highlight of my life, and I wish I could be with you right now, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me, and being with you made me the happiest person in the world, and I wish I could hold on to that, and I know people say nothing lasts forever, but I think we could, and I guess, what is the problem with trying to make them wrong? We can do anything we want, and together I know we can make the impossible possible, we can go further than the impossible, we can go all the way to the possimpable.
May 26th 2012
I never really wrote about your appearance, I guess I focused a lot more on your personality and memories, mostly because you’re so amazing, anyway, I remember you as one of the most beautiful girls to stand before my eyes, with your long curly brown hair, your killer brown eyes, a smile that would blow a whole city away, and not to comment about your figure, but wow, you are stunning in every way, and if I were to rate you out of 10 appearance-wise, honestly, I would give you a 12. I could say so much more about your appearance, but to be honest what I really noticed first in you was your smile, your eyes, and you beautiful long curly hair, and how I miss seing that wonderful appearance everyday.
May 25th 2012
Sometimes I come here and I forget what to say, sometimes I run out of ideas, it’s not the easiest thing to write about something different every single day, yet a slight thing about you pops up into my head, and I feel like I can turn it into a whole paragraph, its quite amazing how I know you for such a short while, yet you are so amazing that you actually give me so much to write about.
May 24th 2012
When I think back at everything that happened in the cruise, when I think about every single moment of those 7 days it doesn’t seem like it, it seems that a story like that would take at least 2-3 months to actually happen, when I rethink of it, it looks like it took so much time, yet while I was in the cruise it passed as fast as a lightning bolt, I think its because when I think about the times I was with you it lasts an eternity, and when I am actually with you time passes so fast, I don’t quite understand it, but I sort of get, I’m blown away with these thoughts of you, I see a bit of you in every good thing that passes in front of my eyes.
May 23rd 2012
“I am the master of my fate, I am the captain of my soul” I bet you’ve already heard of this, just like everyone else in the whole entire world, but I hope that this is true, because if I really am the master of my fate then I hope that I do everything right, that I do no mistakes, no wrong turns, no stupidities just so that my fate can end up being by your side. I control my actions, and my actions are going to lead me to find you, and after that all I had to do to try and reach my fate with you is done, and from then on it’s your decision, I just hope you want to have the same fate as I do, because we are perfect for each other, you and me know that, and even people that don’t know us and only caught a glimpse of us together also knew that. I miss you.
May 22nd 2012
Distance sucks, it’s painful, it’s heart breaking, I hear a beautiful song it reminds me of you, I see something perfect, like a perfect scenery with two people kissing and it directly reminds me of you. In only 4 days you took hold of my heart, and when it was over you ripped it out of my chest and took it back to New Jersey with you. Thinking of you hurts, but at the same time when I think of what we had it makes me the happiest person in the world. You are the best thing that every happened to me, but right now what hurts the most, basically what I’m trying to say, is please come here, or that destiny drags me to live there just so I can be with you, because the undoubtedly I shall always be the happiest person in the world.
May 21st 2012
I remember it perfectly, and I think this was the moment I completely fell for you, it was when you rejected Jordan and you were being really mean to him and then he said “Are you a slut?” and you replied “No, I’m not a slut, I’m a bitch” and then you turned to me and looked into my eyes and sais “yes, I am a bitch” and all I did was laugh and smile, because one of the things I like most in you is that you were a bitch to every other guy that appeared in front of you, but never ever were you a bitch to me, blew my mind away how you were to every other guy but then you would come into my arms and kiss me, I liked how you were direct to me and told me that you are an actual bitch, I still laugh when I think of it, I’ll never forget this.
May 20th 2012
It’s passed so much time since the end of the vacation, yet I remember as it was yesterday. I can remember how everything we were with each other we were as close to each other as possible, I had you in my arms, I had you on my lap, and even both at the same time, I can remember just sitting on that couch and just being with you, and be the closest as we could be, in a appropriate way this is, I can’t explain what we had, but what we had was absolutely perfect, you are just simply something else, and every moment of ours just symbolizes how perfect we were.
May 19th 2012
“The world is made for two.” I heard this in a song, and the only thing that came up to my head is me and you. The world is made for me and you, what is life worth living if you don’t spend it with the right girl? The right girl for me is you, what is worth paradise if I’m not there with you? You and me are just meant to be, when the world looks at us they know that it is all made for both of us to enjoy it together. God made this for us, we are here for a reason, at least my reason was to find you and be with you all of the time until the day I’m no longer alive.
May 18th 2012
There is a saying that “people want what they cant get”, and well what I have to say to that is that it is an utter lie. I had you, I was aware of that, and every single second I wanted you more and more, I wanted you for who I saw you as, and not because of a stupid badly thought out theory, and it sounds kind of hypocrite right now, but I ‘supposedly’ can’t have you, because of geographic reasons and nothing else, but even if there was no geographic obstruction, where I could have you for all of my life I would still want you, and that feeling of wanting you would increase infinitely, beyond measurable.
May 17th 2012
I remember the first time we kissed, I remember the whole scene, know it better than the back of my hand. It is something that I will never forget. We were together in a group with about another 6 people, and I was with my arm around you, they were always staring at us, but then they all left to get a drink, I turned to you and said “Jesus, they never leave us alone” and you replied with a grin “well we’re alone now” and after that, alas what can I say? Could not think of a better lead up to our first kiss. :-)
May 16th 2012
The ‘L’ word is over used is modern day society. I honestly don’t know how to measure my feelings, but for sure I am not going to ever say it here, because if I ever say it I want it to be when I’m with you, because it makes it the so much more special, I have no idea of the meaning of love, but I guarantee that if I spend more time with you you’ll certainly give me the meaning of it, you’re the most special person to me, always remember that.
May 15th 2012
Writing is far from being my favorite thing, I barely write for school, which I am supposedly obliged to. Anyway, writing about you actually has a purpose, it actually has a meaning. Writing is meant to be something beautiful, but I guess that if I am writing about something beautiful then automatically it already makes my writing beautiful right? I write about you because I miss you, and I hope that if someday I find you I can show to you how much you mean to me by showing you all of this.
May 14th 2012
I have been mocked by the universe, excessively, if only you knew how much, its only believable by seeing. The universe has been doing it on purpose by remembering me of you every time possible, everywhere I look I see Jessica, Jess or something to do with New Jersey, it is quite irritating, because it hurts how much I miss you, and until now I havent had a moment without thinking of you, I dont know if this is a sign or just a joke, but whatever it is, you’re always on my mind.
May 13th 2012
Unfinished, is a term that is very rarely used, but thats what I am going to do now. We are unfinished, something that was obliged to end, something that never had an end, something that was left just at the beginning, its like an essay just with the introduction, with no body paragraphes and no conclusion. One can’t help but imagine how it would end between us, that is if nothing interfered would it ever end, maybe we would be unfinished to death, and thats the kind of unfinished I want, not this.
